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*~~Thursday, February 21, 2002~~*
Yay, I got to skip school today. :P It's been snowing, and the roads were all slippery this morning. So the buses didn't drive. XD
Although sitting at home is boring as well. :S But still better than sitting in math classes and not understanding anything. ^_^;
I just took some tests... according to them, I'll have sex with 2 males in my life. (One down, one to go? Heh.) And will love
one of them. Works fine with me. XD A relationship without love doesn't really make sense. Oh and hey, I'm 36% bitch and 38% slut. Lmao. :D
 
That's less than average. No complaints plz. XD And hey, a little naughtyness is fine, isn't it? O:) Hrm.. I should be doing homework right now...
I don't want to screw up in school again. Last semester was enough. My grades sucked, really. ~goes to write an essay about
the protagonist's behaviour in 'Homo Faber'~ Is that cool or what? x_=
*~~Wednesday, February 20, 2002~~*
YAYAYAY!!! A long awaited letter finally arrived and lightened up my day. ;) Light is good. :S We don't have too much of it, it's
raining constantly. Sky is dark, room is dark, soul is dark... MUAHAHA! ~coughs~ No, not really. Soul is happy. As are mind and body (just
got some chocolate, that should do).
I didn't mind going to school today.. I'm really wondering if I get ill or something. @_x At least I get to talk to my friends, hehe. One of them, Daniela..
did something weird. She started an "open relationship" with a guy. Means they do kiss each other(and such stuff. :P), and care for each other, but still can start with others. o_O;
I don't really see the sense in this relationship.. I asked her if she didn't want to change it, but she said she likes
it the way it is. I guess I can't do anything about it.. I'll just watch this thing.. I doubt it'll make her happy in the end.
She is the jealous type of girl - and I can't imagine her staying all calm if he starts with another girl. But eww.. it's not my
business, really. I care too much. ~_~
*~~Tuesday, February 19, 2002~~*
Do you know this feeling, when everything just seems to be so perfect? I'm just having one of those days..
I passed my test this morning without even a single mistake, I got my favorite food for lunch, I don't have any homework, and I have
enough chocolate here to survive this day. ;) I could hug the whole world... I'M THE QUEEN OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!
But I still haven't played the SEs... damn TT decided to go down when I wanted to play Luna.. ^_^; But I shouldn't complain, it runs
fast most of the time. And I still have other projects to do - should I get my own domain? Hmm.. ~thinks~ If I just had more money.. =/
First I need to get my school stuff done. It isn't too bad yet, I'm at least taking part in the classes. It just bores me.
Most of the stuff is so easy - except maths and physics. I don't have a clue about those two subjects. We did a funny test in physics today..
it was about little cars and speed and stuff... I just don't know what for. @_x I guess I should grab one of the guys and make them help me. They usually have a
better knowledge of this stuff.
Heh, my uncle is visiting us.. he's a little weird, I don't like him that much.. he's.. so vulgar. :S And everytime he pats you on the back
you have a hard time not to cough hard. XP But today I got away with making him two coffees, I hope.
*~~Sunday, February 17, 2002~~*
Yay, my father is currently "renovating" my room. At least it's getting a little update. =) It looks all modern
and friendly now. Me likes. ^.^ Especially my glass table... but since my English isn't good enough to describe the changes, I'll just have
to take a photo sometime.. with a digital camera, if I'll ever get one. :S But since we'll probably fly around in UFOs in 30 years,
I didn't give up hope completely. XP (Hmm... UFOs... I know with whom I'd like to live in an UFO-house. :D :D)
Meh.. this is Sunday, school starts over tomorrow. :S Those two weeks were all fine and a nice experience, I wish it would have lasted longer.
And so much work tomorrow.. -_-" Gotta go into town, my driving school wants me to subscribe some stuff.. oi.. but hey, I'm just realising that I can sleep
a little longer on Tuesday... No school until my test is finished. XD
Later: Just took my shower... feeling all clean and warm and fuzzy now. ^.^ Hmm.. my parents want to watch Harry Potter later on...
~thinks about joining them~ It's supposed to be a good film - it can't beat LotR anyway, but I need a bit distraction from missing someone.. XP
Heh, I've been working on some designs today - Tutorials are really nice. Go here to see them.
*~~Saturday, February 16, 2002~~*
~yawns a little~ It's 11am and I'm still tired. One should assume 9 hours of sleep are enough. x.x The sun is shining, this would be a good day to go for a walk..
or try out my moped. XD Oi.. moped.. reminds me... big driving license test on Tuesday.. ~worries~ Maybe I should learn a little more.. ^_^;;;;
Hey looooooooooooook!! I made an SE Bitebug. :D :D  I'm going to collect more than 700. Well... as soon as I get the time, that is. Hehe. I haven't played much lately.
Erp.. about 4 tourney matches waiting for me.. ~_~ I've been living in my own little world lately, I should wake up and care a little more about TTx again. And about my real life, heh.
Although I have the feeling it's getting better. I go out more lately... (I still miss the old friendships, but there are developing new ones.. hopefully.) And I have my kiddies. ^.^
The brother of one girl is in hospital... heart attack or something.. :S He didn't wake up yet... I'll be visiting her and her family on Monday.
Not much more to say.. it's weekend, I'm feeling good. My parents haven't argued yet.. well, it's only 11:30, but still.. not bad. Maybe they'll manage a day without argument.
Now it's BITEBUG-TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*~~Friday, February 15, 2002~~*
Now, I've been trying for about 4 hours to come up with a nice blog design... and yet I haven't really found what I wanted, but
I guess this will do for now. ^_^; Webdesign is actually harder than I thought, at least when you want to learn too much at once. :S
This isn't really too much.. in fact, it is quite simple, but I finally understood the concept of tables and CSS to a certain extent.
Everything left is getting better. ^_^;
Well, my work at the kindergarden is now gone... no more sweet kiddies to cuddle... although one of them has a present for me... it isn't finished
yet, so I have to go over there on Monday once again, to get it. ^_^
But the most important thing now is school... my grades sucked last semester, and I seriously think I spend too much time in front of my
comp.. but otherwise, I can't stop... it's addictive. :S Especially now, where I start to get interested in proper webdesign, and not just the silly
bits of HTML I knew before. But I will have to spend more time in front of school books.. I have yet to see how to manage that.
As to my parents, they are arguing daily lately... their moods are weird. Once they are all cuddling and happy, a moment later they argue
about silly things such as the TV program and really start to yell about it. And they wonder why I am spending most of the time in my room.
I can't help them, I'm damned to listen and worry. It's hard, especially when they get loud and start insulting each other... I'm happy I have my discman.
I just turn it loud and half of the voices are gone... hehe.. geezes, and those parents are yelling at me for not taking part in the family life..
Lmao, should I start randomly yelling at them as well? I would just get to hear a "no internet for you in the next week." So I rather stay the
nice, sweet, calm girly they obviously want to have. They don't get to take part in my life that way, but I can't open up to them as well.
I've built myself a life online.. it isn't good for me, I know. But somehow those "not real" persons understand me better than my real life friends or family..
and then, of course, there is my boyfriend, whom I love deeply. Yes, even he is "not real", but I feel connected to him in a way apart from internet...
I feel he's the best friend I've ever had, he understands me, he cares for me, he is there for me. He loves me without wanting anything else back than love.
He helps me through those times, I just wished we lived closer to each other... but one cannot have all, probably.
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